Can't believe it . Sigh . In th first place jiu shouldn't have taken any orders from them . No money shouldn't even take . Hai dao now everything my fault . Cry liao who cares ? F care . Cos they not th ones responsible to pay nor be responsible for th bags . Sigh . Though it seems like a very simple thing , it is , but make until it got worst . Supplier texted me saying bags increased $3 cos of shipping fee , I told all of them . All say okay . Then supplier again texted me ask me add $3 more then changed to $1 for each bag . I didn't even earn any of their money , yet have to go through all this kinda thing . Though th bag can be sold to someone else , its making me in a diff position as I'm not even th one paying for it . They won't understand . All they "know or think" is I'm earning their money . Well , I'm never gonna sell things to friends anymore . Thinking that its cheap so I asked them out of good will as they are quite close , things went out th wrong way . So damn disappointed . All these disappointments , they won't understand cos none of them wants to think about me . They say so easy , cancel jiu cancel , now I jialat jialat with th 2 bags . Sigh . I hate it this way and damn shag and disappointed with them . Well , its all about bs and things that they can never understand . I didn't earn a thing and I seem to be th huai ren as if i'm trying to earn their money when I don't even earn 10 cents out of each bag . I shouldn't try to be so "hao xin" and ask so much next time . Hais ... Why won't they just try to understand ? Its not even my fault .. If they feel as if I'm "cheating" or scamming or whatsoever , why not they think , isn't it worst that I have to take responsibility for 12 bags and not just their's ? Say so easy jiu shi "I don't want th bag liao" , cos either "Getting more and more exp lea" / "I don't think I'll be using even if I buy" , then in th first place want buy and last min cancel , make me in such a difficult position ? Or , its not as if I want to increase th pricing of those bags when I don't even earn a thing . Sigh ... Suan le ba . I'll never take such risks or be so kpo ask so much in future ... Disappointed , cried , but end of th day , who cares and will understand ?... Hais , time to stfu ..

~*T,C&LWNR**~

11:29PM; 30 June 11

Friends ? Just wtf are friends ? Will be there ? Smlj ? I learn from you all . When you all are in need of someone , I'll just hiu lan . Not my problem what . Fair and square . You all want how jiu how . Wondering wtf is my fucking existence for . Knn . CKLPS then have uh ! F everything man . Friends ? Those who'll approach me cos they even care or bother then really appreciates it . Just wtf am I caring so much for ?-.- I've really had it already ! I'm tired ! I'll just f off th way all want it . Sigh , really confused ..

~*T,C&LWNR**~

11:05PM ; 28 June 11

Hais ... What can I do now ? Shag also can't tell you why .. I suck . I maybe th worst bitch to you .. Worst friend ... Hais . Other than this route , I can't seem to have any other choices to make ... I feel so bad , yet I feel so helpless .... Its all for th best .. I can't remain like how I used to be before , or it'll be a never ending thing . Sigh . Will you understand why I'm doing this ? No . You know I'm suffering more than you think I'm happy ? You know I teared alot ? It super hurt me doing this ... Hais , sorry but I have no other alternatives to choose from at a point like this ... Once everything is over , then I'll slowly explain to you ... I'm so sorry ..

SHAG ); SIGH ~

~*T,C&LWNR**~

08:53PM ; 27 June 11

Bad day !!

Today suck ttm ! 3 people suppose to turn up for trades , end up only one did . Still made me wait for 50 mins ?! #@$%@#$&*#$ to th core ! Urrghh . So annoyed-.- One overslept , th other couldn't make it , last one think he so dua pai make me wait . Tmd . Take one train from Kallang to Paya lebar need 50mins ?! Wtf . Tsk ! Early morning chiong with w bro to eunos , meet people take thing , going Boonlay , spammed th damn person's phone till like 5 more stations reaching , I went bugis . Received a text saying : So sorry , overslept ! -.- WTH ?! Sucha waste of my time . Otw to go bugis , friend texted telling me he cancelled order for someth he ordered . I*&#(*&$(*& him ttm man . OMG . Then before going find friends , wanted to collect supply for tees there , "SHOP CLOSED" . -.- !! Qi si ren le ! *It all happened in th morning ! Went Bugis , couldn't shop much cos they* were tired ): But finally bought th other stuffs and more HK pens^~^After that , suppose to do June HW , end up there laugh here laugh there , copy answer , do afew questions then jiu go eat dinner go back le . Had a long day though . Otw home just before gonna step out of shelter , I STARTED POURING LIKE CRAZY !! Wth ?! What stupid luck I have today ! Craps days mans ~ _|_ Hope I'll accomplish my other HW and stuffs tmrw ( TH LAST DAY BEFORE SCH REOPENS !) ); Sian sian sian !! Tonight will sure be another damn long night I guess . Sigh !:(

And to you , mo mo ren , so sorry for not being to accept th way your treating me . Well , probably its all just sympathy . I needn't need it . Appreciate all your care and kindness , but I guess its just too much . Dui bu qi !

~*T,C&LWNR**~

03:29AM ; 26 June 11

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Well well ... 3 years have gone by and its already th mids of sec 4 . I guess everyth can never be th same as before , no matter what I say or hope . Sigh . Maybe , I'm just not good enough . You have been one of th best parts of this 3 years . I really appreciate th things you had and have been doing for me . Though things are getting from bad to worse , I choose to look at it th bright side . At least your happier this way (at least from what I see . I believe in life there will sure be more obstacles and difficult routes to take , choices to make . Though I may not be th one being able to be there anymore , I truly hope you'll find someone else to take my place . So many things we did , laughter , joy and tears , I'll never forget . Th things you say and did whenever I'm always shag , I really appreciate it alot . I didn't know I'll be that upset being in this position to you now . Well , I've got to accept it no matter how much I don't want things to be this way . Its been already going on for quite awhile and I've been always bringing it and these stuffs to you . You must be sick of listening to me complain all th time , thats why you take further steps away from me . Those times we had , I'll always rmb them . Th fun , everything , yes I sure will . Your one of a kind of wonder friend I've ever had . I know where I stand . Sometimes seeing you so miserable from afar , I wish to comfort you . But no matter how I try to go over , you'll still to push me away and fake a smile saying you're okay . I miss those times we cried , laugh , played in th rain , and every single experience we had . But sigh , I've really lose my position .. I hope whatever happens from now , you'll always be happy . You may even have forgotten me , or probably its me thinking too much cos I care . I hope we'll still be good friends at th very least ... If you've forgotten me , just think of our past sometimes will do . Thanks for all th care , love and concern as a friend . I've never regretted getting to know you from th very day we met . I appreciate everything and really owe you a big thank you . I wish things would have last longer than they would . Well , things had to end for sure .. Hope everything will go fine and smooth for you in no matter what you do ...

To: My Anonymous Friend <\3

Thanks for it all :'/

~*T,C&LWNR**~

25 June 11

Things you'd never know

I'm doing so much just to forget bout you , about anything that has to do with you . Sigh I guess you'll still be th same . I've done th best I could . Gonna let go once I can . Hope you'll be happier this way . All th best to you .. Th things I do for you , I guess you'll never know nor understand or even care ... Sigh . Just my luck .

~*T,C&LWNR**~

11:00PM ; 23 June 11

Officially made up my mind . Ain't gonna regret that decision . Its all over now ... I had to do things I didn't want to , so I'm doing it for th sake of everything . No one will understand but its okay . I rather play th bad person here for th sake of all of you . Its over ..

~*T,C&LWNR**~

01:07AM ; 21 June 11

What an interesting day I had ! Fell down and almost fainted due to gastric . How awesome . Thanks to two kind souls that I didn't go hospital . Without their help and all , I would have been sent to th hospital . What a great day ! Now I know gastric can be really very serious ~ Sigh , who cares . If I really did went hospital , i'll be happy though . No one gives a f at all . Love my life to th max . I hope one day I meet those two man and woman so I can really thank them ! And , worse come to worse , I hate it when things are like now . Everything has gone from bad to worse . I know both of you don't give a damn anymore . I'm gonna start living with th fact that things are like this . Hais . Imytvm <\3

~*T,C&LWNR**~

02:15AM ; 18 June 11

Seems like I can only turn to this pathetic blog . No one maybe reading this . Th better . Whoever sees this must be thinking how's it possible that my life's so miserable ? Yea , true . So pathetic life . At least I've still got someone I can really yi kao on . Sigh . He ain't th one I want it to be .. Tmrw's gonna be a fantastic day . I'll be out alone . Well , time to fan xing of th things I've done and everything . No close friends , doesn't matter . I'll just live with th fact and stop acting so pathetic and letting others sympathise me . Gonna study and focus on my other stuffs . No point brooding over these type of things when I know nothing's gonna change no matter what I do . Probably its my karma . I'll accept and move on without complaining already . Life has to go on no matter what happens . Sigh ..

~*T,C&LWNR**~

16 June 11

Sigh sigh ):

Hais , I thought with one arnd jiu hao le ... Now everyone seems gone , again ): Sigh . What should I do ? Turn to him* again ? Urrgh . Seriously crap life . Maybe I should just f off all of their lives and stop being so annoying saying so much all th time . Probably ... I should start getting used to it to a life with no close friends and with those type of "2 face" type of people ... Hais . My wonderful life . I love it so much .. I guess I deserve this . Time to wake up from th past .. Sigh ..

Seriously shag ttm .

~*T,C&LWNR**~

16th June 11

Happy and sad ): :D

Yay ~ He finally talk to me liao ! Wheeeeee ~ Hope we'll still be able to be close friends again ! But he seem so qi guai .. Saying so many weird weird stuffs . Hmmm , hope whatever he said was just joking ba . Sad cos , sigh . We* keep having so many conflicts . When then it'll be over ?): Sad sad de me ;( Lazy bloggy lerh ! Off to fb w meihuaaaaa <3 :D

~ *T,C&LWNR** ~

03:26AM ; 15 June 11

Sian max

Every night sleep so late , wake up so early . Feel like dying . Seem to be having fever . So unwell , so sian . Hais . Every night shag and fretting over th same things . What can I do ? Keep listening to so many songs which makes me more shag . Really very confused now . What should I do ? Cry also cry liao . Nothing seem to be working . Hais ... Life life life ! Days are getting worst . Urrghh . So much of stress , everything . ~ Selling things online is another stress . Customers sometimes ask or say stupid things . Pekcek sia -.- Hope everything will get better soon again ~ Urrghh . I'm a sad person man seriously . Pathetic .

~*T,C&LWNR**~

10:40PM ; 09 June 11

)':

Seriously , getting more and more shag by th minute . Whatever I do you won't be happy . Then fine . I'll make sure you'll be happy from now . However ways you do , will never be what I want . I hate my life . Hais . Thanks to you . There can be no days and night which I can sleep in peace without crying . Hais .

~*T,C&LWNR**~

09:44PM ; 02 June 11

Hais ...

You'll never know how much your words hurt me .. Thinking nothing would bother me , I didn't care . But as time passes , it got worst .. Day after day , from day to night , everything worsen .. I act as if I don't care , but what ? You won't understand at all .... Hais .. Hope what I'm trying to do really become that way .. Hais , hurting really alot .. Yr words are really very harsh .. Hais ... Other than crying , what can I do ? You'll eventually know why I'm doing all this since back then .. Hope you'll be okay ... Hais ....

Sieh shag dao can't shag already ....

~*T,C&LWNR**~

07:10PM ; 01 June 11