Lalalala ~

Freaking bored ! Haven't been posting due to too busy w sch stuffs and selling things ~ Its already going to be Mid year exams !;( Sian ! So fast . So far , I've been barely being able to past these few days being like this ... Hope I'll be able to pull through ba . Today didn't know why , but ust got th urge to read our past covers . Walao , read dao really want cry . Guess I haven't even put you down yet .. I simply think too much bout th past and miss you alot .. Can't help it ... Days without you , are a million times different . With and without you around , everything seem veery different , be it good or bad .. As flashbacks always come to mind , I always can't control my tears .. Every once I think of you , I try my best not to and to always occupy myself with other things .. I wonder , how long more will this go on , and how long will I be able to stand it ... Hais . Hate being in a difficult position like this ... Hope your doing fine w what you're doing and will remain happy ... Blablabla , hope I do well too for th coming exams and manage to cope and handle my time well ..

~*T,C&LWNR**~

02:37PM ; 21 April 11

Hmmm ...

Many many things coming to mind ~ Think le keep thinking , now I've decided to help you . What I'm gonna do might make you hate or dislike me , but that doesn't matter as long as there's hope fr you to change . I'm determined to help you cos I believe you will change for yrself and yr future ! I might not be in th right position to even do such a thing but I hope by doing these things it'll at least change you alittle . As long as there's a will I'm sure there's a way so I won't stop trying ! Just hope you'll change for th better from now and lead a normal life like everyone else is . All th best !'

~*T,C&LWNR**~

07:15PM ; 15 April 11

More words after words ~

Hais .. These few days are really so difficult to pass . Now I know , I si dou yao let you go . Friends also can't be anymore . Well , you chose this path . Your getting from bad to worst . I'm gonna wash my hands off you and yr life . You don't worth a thing I do nor a single tear of mine . You're lucky you still have friends . I admit defeat to her and you . Though now I'm having mixed feelings for someone , we won't be tgthr cos I don't wanna destroy our friendship and end up like us . Thats th biggest diff I find between us . I don't "pick up" people whenever I'm fond of them . I'm gonna let go of everything that has got to do w you . I'm sure you'll be happy . Good luck to she and you . Karma will still strike you back numerous times more than how you treated me and everyone else . Good luck to you boy . Gonna hen xia xin fang xia ni for good . I mustn't turn back or tear for you ever again . Goodbye bloody past ! Hope everyday from now will be better days ahead than th past few months' you've put me through .. I know I'll sure think and miss you alot , but its time to say goodbye now ...

~** T,C&LWNR**~

12:29PM ; 15 April 11

Shag shag ..

Lately nothing's going well ... One after another , I'm losing all of them .. Thought I could be friends w him , yet I doubt so ... Shall give him up .. As fr her , she changed ... Why's all these happening to me ? One day they'll really all be gone fr good ... Why must things turn out this way ? Why won't things get better fr me ? Hais ... I hope time would really rewind , rewind to let me treat them better than before ... 17/07/09 , was th first time we* talked and it happened ... 02/09/10 , th second time we got together , things got from bad to worse ... 23/01/11 to 10/03/11 was th best days I ever had ... But things didn't last .. You changed from good to bad , and from bad to worst ... Hais ... 13/03/11 we got back , 09/04/11 it ended once again ... This time , nothing will bring us back to how I wish things would be like ... Time to let you go ... Another you , th first time we talked was 24/11/10 when you ton over at people's house , we talked fr about 3hrs though its our first time talking .. From 6th March , we had th worst quarrel ever .. During this period of time , then I knew how much I meant to you and found out so much of things I never thought could be true ... Now , you changed .. I guess probably its th end between th 2 of you and I ... Hais , hao hao bao zhong ba ..

~*T,C&LWNR**~

01:45PM ; 14 April 11

Back !

Seems like I haven't been posting here fr days ! Too busy doing lotssss of stuffs in sch and all , can't blog no matter how much I wanna ! On Monday , had cca . Though not marching , still have to go fr cca and entertain all th juniors-.- . Its such a waste of time . Tuesday , had napha test . Have medical reasons so don't need do anything !:D After jiu go back w her <3 , her' him :D , another friend and unexpectedly , HIM . Zzz . Saw him , jitao shag . Also don't know what to do . Didn't dare to turn to even take a glance of him . In train , thought about so many things rgrding us* . Got more and more shag . He came over , I steal a quick peek and almost cried .. Hais . After went Tamp , dinner w her <3 and th other friend . Thinking that they* alrdy left , I felt relieved . After that they appeared again . WTF . Went library find books fr her , jiu go back le . Wed , had 2.4 and I passed !:) After that went T1 and all walk walk , then when she left , went buy her and her' him a couple keychain(: Was their 1 year anniversary , and since its someth rare and they were looking forward so much fr it , I just bought it fr them . As long as they happy jiu hao , everything and anything's worth . If money can be used to buy real and natural smile , I would spend all my money to make as many people as happy as they can:) Yesterday during recess , went give them:D Haha , glad they were happy:) Wished them all th best and stuffs , hope they'll last longer and not just long^^ . After sch had some ridiculous student counsellor investiture rehearsal too . So lame . Such a waste of time-.- . Today , went sch feeling shag , but just had to smile . No matter how shag I am , I can't keep *hais* and ":(" when in sch and all . Cos lots of people will get worried ! So can't , jiu ren .. Last night , had afew hours of sleep , and also th ppast few nights . Super sian ! Now feeling very unwell:( Sigh ! Other than sch , other things have been bugging me . Like that person's stuff . Everything make me shag ... Last night , I thought things were gonna be fine after conferenced . I was wrong . Today things seemed to be th same , and even worst . Sigh , why won't you ever see that yr actions are really selfish ? Why are you* doing this to me ?): Shag max , but you won't understand ... Really want things to get better from now ... K , time to sleep so I won't think too much and all . Feeling worse now); Hope I recover soon !:(

~*T,C&LWNR**~

6:48PM ; 8 April 11

Blablabla ...

Today was a horrible day ! Everything sucked ! Early in th morning jiu tio kp like hell , followed on by online seller , went mia . Buyers all cancelled orders last minute , and one last freaking thing* Hais ! Terrible life la seriously . To that bloody jerk , I know you don't even give a damn bout anything already . I don't wanna care either . I love yr nice attitude . Well , yr choice . Its all up to you . Karma's gonna so damn strike back hard on you . As long as you think you did no wrong , its fine w me . One day you'll really regret . Yr choice ba . From now onwards , I must not allow anything to affect my mood that easily already . Must learn to be strong and pick myself up every once I fall . Cos I know , no matter how much people* say they'll be there fr you , you mustn't totally think you can really rely on the, , or when you need them and they're not there fr you , you'll fall much deeper . Must be independent and strong from now ! Home everyday will be a much better day than "yesterday" .

~*T,C&LWNR**~

2:25PM ; 2 April 11

2nd April's Post

So what if adults are our elders ? That totally doesn't give them th right to scream and shout at their younger ones and expect us to just diam right ?They have mouths , so do we . What are our mouths fr ?Want us diam diam , then why they kpkb so much ?Wtf . They shout at us jiu can , we say back to fight fr our rights cannot ? Smlj kinda logic ? Ccb . Younger ones need to respect elder ones , then older ones don't have to equally respect younger ones ?Want people to respect , jiu respect them first la pcb-.- _l_

~*T,C&LWNR**~

2:14PM ; 3 April 11

SHOUT -OUTS !

Just what on earth parent wants ? Gong out also have wrong meh ? Everytime they say after sch don't wonder about go home straight . Then whenever want go jiu say cannot . Thats why I always stay out till so late what ! WTF ? Am I a full time robot that have to be their fucking slave and keep studying all th way ? Where on earth is my own personal freedom ? Im no longer a 6 year old kid ! I'M FUCKING BECOMING 16 ! Fucked up life la seriously !_l_ Next time jiu forever don't go out best right ? Sometimes I'm really tired of everything and everyone thats making my life so miserable .. Why all these things* have to keep happening on me ? Why me ? Why ?.. I'm really tired , yet can't even do anything ... No one will ever understand me cos your not me .. When I really can't stand it any longer .. I'll sure do someth I'd never want to ... Hais .. Destinated crap life !_l_ Hais !

~*T,C&LWNR**~

11:55AM ; 2 April 11